"Sisters make the best friends."

that's what was written on the keychain.

we were going to alaminos tomorrow so we went to pick up nanang[my lola]. as she was preparing for bedtime, she got this keychain out of her purse and gave it to me. "this is my other gift to you," she said, smiling. it was given to her by auntie eve, her sister, her best friend. the saying on the keychain moved me to tears, but i tried hard not to cry. i smiled and said "thank you, nanang." it was thoughtful of her, because of the value it held, the bond between sisters.

you'll never know how much you love your sister unless she's gone away. i thought i only despised her at times, because she was annoying. i thought i wouldn't miss her. i was wrong.

i now sleep alone in the bed we once shared. i now had more pillows. there were now only four table settings on the table. there was more space, but it was really lonely. everytime i think about her it was hard not to cry. [hala, i'm getting emotional. o_O] don't worry, i'm already used to sleeping alone. and she's always in my prayers.

BTW. omgomgomgomg. youknowwhat!?
on christmas eve [or whatever you call the time when the clock strikes 12 and everybody says merry christmas], kuya paul said "merry christmas" and hugged me. FOR THE FIRST TIME. i was ultimo shocked. anyway, that made me closer to him. that was probably the best christmas gift that year.

i still can't believe my brother hugged me. ._.

byebye~ [megane kun's birthday is on the 30th, i think. can't remember.]

last saturday, we went to bataan. it was a no-internet hell, but it was ok. i was having fun wearing miniskirts and other minis. after all, you cant see me >:)

we went night-marketing, eating all-out, travelling, ukay-ukay hunting, partying. i had a "sugar tita" in bataan so whenever i went there she would shower me with gifts and spoil me. i was looking at a tommy hilfiger watch [fake, but still it was so cool] at the night market and then she asked me "do you want that?" i said yes and she bought it for me. yes, she spoils me. :]

and i figured there was a life after internet. haha. but i really miss you guys. :< bat di kayo nagtetext?? punong-puno yung load ko, pero walang katext. ;___; so sad.

we just got home this afternoon. but tomorrow [24] is my mother's birthday so i'm staying late to make a card for her. i do it yearly. :D i'm planning to make a fashion-related card. hee.

BTW. [i can't use the exclamation point, the keybpard's broken so i'm taking advantage of the almighty capslock.]
-FRANCES. YOUR COVER WAS AWESOMESAUCE. YOU SHOULD'VE PUT IT UP ON YOUTUBE.
-YSA. CONGRATS ON BEING AN EDITOR. I'M A SEME TOO. YAY.
-JIREH. MERRY CHRISTMAAAAS. I HOPE YOU CAN SEE A SNOWFALL FROM MARYLAND CAUSE I HEARD YOU CAN'T SO GOODLUCK AND GOD BLESS.

there. thank you capslock.

tomorrow[ehem, it's 12.] later i'll be cooking an awesome carbonara and i'm planning to do a honey-ginger shrimp recipe. got you drooling? haha, me too. :P

okay, i'm off. MERRY CHRISTMAS.

SO I'M A SEME HUH.
i took the seme/uke quiz cause i was curious.
real blogpost on next post.

You are an Opportunist Seme!

Preying on the clueless is what you're all about. You really don't intend to hurt anyone, but if a bit of harmless manipulation can get you what you want, you're not beyond taking a little advantage of someone, which you figure is an even exchange for your companionship anyway. Not one for lots of drama, you are best paired with the Clueless Uke, who will appreciate your attention and never bat an eye at your slightly sneaky ways.

Most compatible with: Clueless Uke, Innocent Uke

Least compatible with: Badass Uke

What seme or uke are you? Take the experience at SemeUke.com, or find merchandise here.

sometimes i find myself complaining too much.
....a bit more than too much.

i complain about:
-not having enough allowance. (P1oo, or sometimes nothing per week? pshhh.)
-not enough clothes. (i'm running out of shorts.)
-my hair. (it's an ego/confidence thing. )
-bonding time with family (i can't remember when was the last time we went out together.)
-not getting what i want.

and i want a mama bike for christmas. the one with a basket on front and a rider at the back.

i want it so much ._.

BTW. i got a haircut. wanna see? :)


hello. ._.

ne. you know what? the morning after the sleepover, i felt really sick.

good thing i was already home. i slept on my parent's bed. i was already having diarrhea. then suddenly, after sitting in the cr, my vision started to get blurry. dots were appearing everywhere. oh shit, it thought. i quickly stood up to at least get back to bed, but too late. i couldn't control my legs. i fell out of the cr. blackout.

when i came back to my senses, i was lying on the bedroom floor. a part of my head hurt. i hit my head on the floor, i think. i scrambled up to the bed and called for help.

fast forward to sunday.

mom and dad and me were sitting on the dining table, eating. suddenly, mom mentioned about me fainting and falling. then dad said 'what? you didn't even check her blood pressure? x-ray? baka matigok yan. hahayaan mo nalang ulit mangyari?' and i felt insulted. REALLY INSULTED.

rewind. we're supposed to be four siblings, not three. kuya julian (oldest) died of a concussion when he was three. he hit his head on a lawn mower. x-rays were not fast before. you have to wait for a day for the results. he died the day after the x-ray. the end.

now what i don't like about dad said is the last two. one, he is so pessimistic. he is too negative that i hate him at times because he is even giving out the option that i can die from this damned head bump! two. it's like he's blaming my mom for what happened. i wish i slapped him in the face at that moment, but i couldn't. argh.

sorry folks. i can't come to school tomorrow. my tummy has yet to heal itself.

P.S. i'm not going to die cause i said so. :p