Some things I wish for before I go to Taiwan:(since i'm not celebrating my birthday here. D:)
[ ]: unanswered. [+]: granted. [-]: failed.
1. Eat a Red Ribbon cake. [ ]
No birthday is complete with a Red Ribbon cake!! I wanted to eat even just a slice before I go. Just a slice, pleaaaase?
2. Say "I'll miss you guys." [-]
It's too late. I should have said this last Sunday. I'm going to miss you.
3. Meet up with my best friend. [+]
Now, this is not your ordinary best friend. We have been best friends for 6 years or so, despite being on different schools. We share every little secret we have, from mild sweetness to very, very, deep and dark ones. We met yesterday and had a blast. She even treated me to Bubble Tea!! rich, rich. She is probably the bestest friend I could ever have. I feel guilty, though. I'm neglecting her. So, so, so guilty.
4. Graduate from COCC. [-]
I'm very disappointed. It's supposed to be today, but it got cancelled again. I was hoping I would see my seniors and give them gifts (only to some of them), was hoping to be able to sit at the perims, was hoping that it would be finished before I go. It's my fault anyway.
5. Buy glass bead jewelry making stuff. [-]
I dunno. I wanted to go to Quiapo and buy there (because it's cheap), buy I had nobody to come with me. I managed to buy wire, but they barely fit in the bead holes. Too thick. And I wanted to make stuff and sell them quickly!!! Awuu.
That night, I remembered what loneliness and sadness felt once again.
What do you feel when you're all alone at home and all you have for company are pets and the television? Those guys were my companions that night. But all they cared about was food and having a roof under their heads.
Dad is still in Bataan, working. Mom is arranging travel papers somewhere, and my brother has already left for his call center job. I wanted to tell my brother, "Won't you stay for a while? The rice will be cooked soon and I'll just heat the leftovers", but I couldn't. Like there was a gap between us that stretched miles away, I feared I wouldn't reach him. So he left without saying a word, without eating anything.
Loneliness really dawned upon me that night. I realized not even manga could make me company, because in the end, after you finished reading it, there would still be no one. Craving for dessert, I went out to buy myself an ice cream. What a kid. Buying an ice cream to munch the loneliness away. But there was no ice cream. The store had run out of them. So I went back home like a kid who had no candy.
As if a ritual, I would always pass under a curtain of palm leaves. It made me feel ok, somehow. Loneliness made me both sad and happy at the same time anyway. Weird.
i feel so dirty.because it's hot, humid and i haven't taken a bath yet. :)) bwahahaha.
...ok, back to washing the dishes.
LIZARDS ARE NOT JUST INSECTIVORES.
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they eat rice. :D yeah, really.
this morning i woke up alone in the house so had to make breakfast myself. hot chocolate, white bread, PB&J sandwich, milk and water. oh yum. while eating, i checked my daily stuff on the net, deviantart, poupee, etcetc.
when it was lunchtime and i was still alone in the house, i checked the table for lunch *hoping that a delicious meal would magically appear prepared for me*. to my surprise, i saw a lizard on top of the rice pot. *okay, kaldero nalang. walang rice cooker samin eh. :))*
it was EATING rice.
funny, isn't it? i just removed the part that was munched on by that pesky lizard. i chased him away too.
really, lizards eating rice...
i am OH SO SORRY manong. i really did not realize. AHHHHG. 8 pesos din yun, manong!! wag ka mag-alala, pag nagkita tayo ulet, ibabalik ko sayo yung walong piso mo. walong pisong halaga ng krudo. XD
di ba makarelate? sige, ikukwento ko.
isang malamig na umaga ng Miyerkules, naghahanap ako ng tricycle sa don antonio upang makarating sa aking review center. ayun, may isa.
"Veterans po?"
"Oo, veterans."
dahil malapit lang sa veterans ang pupuntahan ko, syempre sumakay na ko. yehey. di ako male-late. hinintay ko hanggang mapuno yung tricycle, tapos umandar na kami. pero anak ng... anong ruta to!!? lumiko agad si manong. kinabahan ako. halaa. san na ko mapapadpad? cool lang ako. pasilip-silip sa daan.. hanggang sa kinabahan na talaga ako. tapos tumigil na si manong. lumabas na yung katabi ko.
"Kuya, sa gideon's??"
"Gideon's? ayun oh. lakarin mo nalang."
tinuro nya yung daan opposite ng dapat nyang dadaanan. yes, sakto. dali-dali akong lumabas at naglakad. babay, manong. nagtataka ako kung bakit nya ako tinitigan sandali, tapos umalis din. malapit na malapit na talaga ako sa review ceneter. tapos bigla kong naalala. OH SHI-!!! HALA!! di ko nabayaran si manong!!!!!! ahhhg. kaya pala nakatitig sakin.
di mo pa sinabi na di pa pala ako nagbabayad, manong. talagang nakonsensya ako. sori talaga manong, di ko sinasadya. pag nagkita tayo ulet, talagang babayaran kita. basta, ikaw yung may pigsa/pimple sa mukha. :]
i was looking at my friends' blogs when i noticed that the topic for the week was...
love. *stab* AUUUUGH. i can't help but go emo on this stuff. it's like my kilig moments are already buried in history. hahaha. they're really memorable though. but i think i won't post it here. Mister L might see it. XD i have a question though..
...am i becoming a hermit?
here i am, sitting in front of the computer, thinking of nothing but games, art, cute things, poupee, manga, etcetc. i also stuff myself daily with sweets [they're my lifeline. if you stab me, chocolate will pour out. 8D] and feed cats, kittens and a dog at night. i also rarely go out of the house. if you ask me what's on trinoma, i really don't know.
i watch some flicks, mostly korean and japanese [boys over flowers, anyone? :D] and drool at the porcelain-skinned [yeah, porcelain] boys, sometimes try to include them in my dreams, but i really don't have a real-life sweetheart or something like that.
i don't even have an inkling that someone likes me unless you believe that saying. when you sneeze, it means someone's thinking of you [which is most probably my dad. XD] if i believed that, i would be happy hatchoo-ing every morning. i have mild rhinitis.
but in reality, i feel like i cut myself off the social society.
is there anything else to say? oh yeah, about Mr. L. Mr. L is very childish but sweet. he treats me like a friend, so i think of him as a friend. he loves to tease and tickle others. in one year's worth of not being able to talk properly to him, our past crumbled to ashes, meant to be forgotten, never meant mention our past, silly selves. bow.
P.S. i really love eyeglassed guys. 8D hurrhurr.
Labels: cats, crush, dogs, hermit, kittens, love
